I tend to feel things in extremes. When I started this program, I was excited\u2013super excited. I loved how new everything was. I loved getting to know everyone and staying up until the early hours of the morning talking\u2013we talked about anything and everything because we just didn\u2019t know one another quite yet. I felt lucky because my transition into this program, the living situation, my job, my friends, all of it came easy to me. It felt great.<\/p>\n
Things are still good, but with time my mentality has shifted. Things feel more comfortable now, almost complacent. Work is steady, friends are consistent, the weeks keep flying by, and I\u2019ve found myself in a bit of a rut. This year more than ever I\u2019ve recognized that I\u2019m a person who often confuses happiness with excitement; I love having things to look forward to, and the whole \u201cmindfulness\/living in the moment\u201d thing is hard for me. Come to think of it, that\u2019s probably one of the reasons yoga is so challenging\u2026 maybe I should keep up with that. Anyway, due to this fear of being stuck, this week I\u2019ve started thinking about my classes for next semester and plans to study abroad. On one hand, doing this makes me excited for the future and as my mom would say, like I\u2019M the director of the movie that is my life. On the other hand, I\u2019m scared of this program coming to an end and looking back feeling like it was all a blur.<\/p>\n
I guess what I\u2019m coming to realize is that there\u2019s no such thing as living ideally. Once I found out I got into this program, back during second semester, I started making big plans for my summer. Goals of reading, practicing guitar, working out, and getting 8 hours of sleep every day\/night\u2026 I\u2019m not quite there. Now as this program is approaching its end, I\u2019m making similar plans for the month of August and fall semester. I want to stop doing that; I want to be here and enjoy the time in this program that I honestly feel very lucky to be a part of. I guess my conclusion is I\u2019ve got some work to do, but I\u2019m lucky that I have the opportunity to do it while I\u2019m still young.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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