{"id":1782,"date":"2017-06-23T20:03:13","date_gmt":"2017-06-23T20:03:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sisa2017.ii.lsa.umich.edu\/?p=1782"},"modified":"2017-06-23T20:03:13","modified_gmt":"2017-06-23T20:03:13","slug":"empty-spaces","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/courses.lsa.umich.edu\/sisablogs\/2017\/06\/23\/empty-spaces\/","title":{"rendered":"Empty Spaces"},"content":{"rendered":"

I arrived home from India three days ago. I had traveled internationally a few times before, but I\u2019ve never felt as strange returning home from a trip as I did this Sunday. When I say I felt strange I\u2019m not talking about jet lag. An hour after I got to my house, my mother and I went to the grocery store. While we were driving everything just felt empty. Where were all the people? The cars on the freeway were well spaced out, moving efficiently, and following rational traffic laws. The grocery store was air conditioned with samples of pastries and salsa laid out neatly for those shoppers who wanted to try. The sky was blue, it was 70 degrees, and the air was so so clean. It didn\u2019t feel homey\u2014it felt weird and sterile and almost foreign. That evening we went to a family friend\u2019s house for a fathers\u2019 day barbeque. We ate burgers and corn on the cobb while kids competed in bean bag tosses and badminton in the backyard. I couldn\u2019t believe that I was on the same planet that I had been on when I boarded my first flight.<\/p>\n

As we drove from suburban house, to suburban grocery store, to suburban backyard party, I couldn\u2019t get over how much space there was. The amount of empty green land that surrounded the highways and houses was harsh to look at. The contrast between New Delhi and Golden Valley, Minnesota was more jarring than I had been anticipating.<\/p>\n

While in Delhi, I saw a greater concentration of hardship that I have ever witnessed in my life. I\u2019ve never been anywhere before with such an enormous population of under-resourced people in such a small space. While I recognized that this all felt new, I was so immersed in the reality of the culture that my mental energy was all focused on absorbing what I saw. I never really had a moment to compare it to how home felt, or to really process that consequences of what I was seeing.<\/p>\n

My plane ride home was my first extended opportunity to reflect on my time in Delhi. I watched Lion on the little TV screen in front of me while being served little airplane cups of chocolate mousse and Delta Starbucks coffee. Lion is about a boy who lives in a Mumbai slum who gets on an abandoned train and ends up entirely across the country from his family. He gets adopted by an affluent couple who live in Tazmania, and decides to find his birth family again in his young adulthood. There is a scene in the movie when he returns to the slum neighborhood where he was born, and sits for a while just watching the kids there play with each other. In this moment he really becomes aware of how random the course of his life was. He may be dressed in nice clothes and have a steady job and may not be able to speak Hindi, but had he not gotten on that train, he would\u2019ve grown up exactly like the little boys he was watching. He remarks in this scene about how random and unfair it seems that he ended up in the life he did. Sandwiched between two other airplane passengers watching a rom com and a superhero movie respectively, I began to cry like a baby.<\/p>\n

This was my first opportunity to really let everything I saw in India soak in. I was crying because I just couldn\u2019t believe how arbitrary the whole narrative was. Because Saroo happened to tragically become separated from his family, he ended up with everything he could ever need. The way Saroo felt, wondering how he ended up with the life he had, was exactly how I was starting to feel. I was born to two white American professionals, so I could afford to sit on an international flight with a little TV screen eating chocolate mouse in an airline cup, and the girls who I taught English to had not only never been on an airplane, but they had never even been outside of their subsection of Delhi. Never even been as far as the neighborhood I lived in with my host couple.<\/p>\n

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Where the kids I worked with played outside<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

I feel like there\u2019s a gap in my understanding of how we ended up in a world that looks the way it does today. How is it possible that people have organized themselves in such a way that New Delhi lives and Golden Valley, Minnesota lives can both be occurring simultaneously on the same planet, only a plane ride away. Of course this divide exists within my own community as well. Less than a mile from my house is the heart of North Minneapolis, the roughest neighborhood of my state. I don\u2019t need a plane to get there but it also feels like an alien planet compared to where I grew up. I fully admit that these thoughts are not original or profound, and before this experience I would\u2019ve rolled my eyes at a post like this. This isn\u2019t the first time I\u2019ve thought about these questions in a serious way. I\u2019ve always been fiercely passionate about issues of social divide, but always in the abstract. This was the first time where I felt really deeply distraught by the divide that exists in our world in a personal and emotional way. I wasn\u2019t reflecting on these questions in an academic context or to defend a political opinion, I was really thinking about what they mean about where I fit in to the workings of the world.<\/p>\n

I think my understanding of what life means has changed. Although I was always aware that life can take all kinds of different forms, being somewhere where there were so many people so close together, I felt like the value of an individual human life was cheapened. Women in the slums had nine ten or eleven children with hopes that six or seven would live and could help earn money. People were born and died without ever leaving the slum area they were born into. At home the things that could make or break someone\u2019s life were getting in to your top school, failing an important exam, looking good in a swim suit, and whether or not you could afford to study abroad or go on a spring break vacation. I was never under the impression that this was the way life was for everyone. I knew that this was a privileged existence, but seeing people who have doused themselves with kerosene and burned their skin or chopped off a limb to make their begging more effective added an air of new reality to my understanding of privilege discrepancy. It\u2019s not unheard of for children to become suicidal when they don\u2019t get into a top school or are teased brutally at school, but over the past five weeks I met kids whose parents have chopped off their fingers to make themselves distinguishable from the masses of beggers, and who still wake up every day and carry on. I was struck by the extremely varied definitions of a good life, a bad life, and a life worth living are across the world.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m trying my best to avoid this sound like a \u201cthink about how lucky you are\u201d kind of post. What I really hope to convey is not that I went to India and came home to realize that I have privilege. I knew that before I left. What I do hope to reflect is that the experience brought things into broader focus. As I continue on with the next three years of college, I seek to answer for myself the same questions that we all try to answer. What makes a good life? What about a bad life? What are the conditions required to make a life worth living? While I certainly don\u2019t have answers for myself yet, I do feel more capable of understanding these questions in a global context. As much as these feel like universal human considerations, the answers can change so much depending on where you fit in to the world as a whole. Life is not defined in the same way everywhere, so it\u2019s important for me to bear this in mind as I think about how I want to craft my own.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I arrived home from India three days ago. I had traveled internationally a few times before, but I\u2019ve never felt as strange returning home from a trip as I did this Sunday. When I say I felt strange I\u2019m not talking about jet lag. An hour after I got to my house, my mother and I went to the grocery store. While we were driving everything just felt empty. Where were all the people? The cars on the freeway were…<\/p>\n

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