Ever since the Growth Mindset presentation by Joe Salvatore, I had time to reflect about how I need to give myself more credit for the work that I do. I am harsh towards myself because whenever I am given a task, the outcomes need to come out perfect. I am a perfectionist and I cannot help it. Everything needs to be perfect when I am writing a paper, creating a poster, organizing files, or giving a presentation and even though it may seem like a strength, I believe it is a weakness because my perfection is the cost of stress and anxiety my body and mind must endure. I always want to control the outcomes and have it my way.<\/p>\n
However, after Salvatore\u2019s presentation I began to reflect about everything I have done in the past that has led me to be where I am right now. For example, when I got an email of my acceptance to the UROP-WAGFSP, I kept on telling myself that I did not deserve this opportunity and I actually denied the offer at first. When I submitted my application I kept on telling myself that I would not be accepted (I know, super negative) because according to me, my paper was not perfect. So, after I submitted my application I forgot about how much work I put into my application and let it go from my thoughts.<\/p>\n
My mind was set on one day receiving an email where it would say, \u201cThank you for application, but we are sorry to inform you that you did not get in.\u201d I really did think this way because I did not want to spend my summer away from my family and California. Leaving my home, was a challenge I did not want experience. Then I was shocked when I got an email stating my acceptance and I did not tell anyone about it because I was going to deny the offer anyways. I just kept on telling myself, \u201cNo, I think they made a mistake\u201d and slowly began to convince myself that my application was not enough to get me in. My application was not perfect in my state of mind, therefore I believed that I did not deserve the offer. However, when I talked to my advisor and mentor, they both pretty much trapped me into a corner (thank you Carla and Kelly!) to take advantage of this opportunity because it was once in a life time. I am so thankful to have them in my life because the opportunity to be here has allowed me to practice having a growth mindset by being more open minded (even though it was hard at first), compassionate, and patient with myself.<\/p>\n
Having a growth mindset is difficult, but I have been practicing it more often while being here at the University of Michigan. Especially after I forgot the passcode to unlock my phone. When I could not remember the passcode I had for 2 years, I literally broke down crying and sacrificed my sleep with the stress of believing it was the end of the world for me. Then I realized that I was making myself unhappy. This was a major turning point during my time here because after that, I have been more compassionate towards myself by making sure to give myself breaks and treating myself to ice cream when stressed. Everything happens for a reason, and if I had to forget my passcode to become conscious about how the power of a growth mindset allows me to know that I have no control over the unimaginable options an outcome may result in and I have been okay with that. That to me is a success because I have learned the difference between putting effort in my work and trying to be perfect to impress others.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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